first and foremost sorry everyone for the lack of updates, way to much has been happening, and i feel as though i neglected the blog first and foremost, which i should'nt have done since it was my outlet for everything, but where iam now feels though this may not even help me.
There's so much running thru my mind every minute of everyday. I can't just shut it off, I want to find the off switch but there is no such thing, my sleep is currently like wires criss crossing one another each one running at full capacity. I can't lock down on one emotion because im feeling so many. I just hope I can find answers. I know staying awake for days and days doesnt solve anything, if it did we'd all be Nocturnal and look like Vampires, pale white, giant black bag's beneth our blood shot eyes, craving to feed.
I'm still human, I know that much because I still have feelings and I have raw emotions but un sure how to channel them or use them, and I don't want to make the wrong move or I'm to paranoid to make the right move. Time will show me answers, and if its wrong then oh well back up and try again, I've never given up my entire life. I've always been a fighter ever since I was born, i've always been battling something physically or mentally ever since I can remember.
I realize this is not a food update but i dont have much to update you on the food side of the fence other then we have new menu items at work which are well just alright. They have flavour but they have some kind of lack luster about them! I dunno maybe its the fact alot of people at work don't cook from there heart like I do, who knows. I know where I cook from and how I cook and thats all i should worry about.
anyways until next time.
take care everyone.
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